Personal growth as a topic is so ambiguous…what the hell does it really mean? I’ve been thinking a lot about this lately. What are we doing here? What are we supposed to be doing? Who are we supposed to be? And what is right and wrong when it comes to those questions? And the more I think about it, the more I’m realizing that you can’t really answer them because they are so different for every human. Personal growth that I seek will look nothing like of anyone that I know.
For most of my life I’ve been what most people consider aggressive and unapproachable. Yuck, right? At least that’s what I think. Or what I’ve come to realize over the past year. Lately I have had so much regret about so many actions in my life. How loud I have been, aggressive, impatient, etc. And while I understand why I was that way [and still can be], I am finding it to be a hard thing to forgive within myself. I start to wonder if that forgiveness is necessary to move forward…to live and act differently. I have no idea, but a part of me believes that it must be.
I have to believe that all of us want to be the best version of ourselves, but I am often curious as to why it has to be such a process. Why we have to unlearn the habits and traits that have made us who we are. Sure, part of that is how you were raised, but the other part of that is who you are at your core. Don’t you think?
I’m rambling a bit at this point…because I don’t completely understand it myself…but thought I would put this out there as a talking point.